4:08 am on Jan. 11th I said my hardest goodbyr
I let go the only guy from my past who would do anything and everything for me.
at the time we were together he went above and beyond to prove how he felt for me.
I cared about him alot as well
then he introduced the word LOVE
me and that word have never really been on friendly terms.
I did what I knew best I let him know my feelings weren't the same. I thought everything was over. But it wasn't for the past few months we kept in contact... More him than me... He still never let me forget how much he loves me.
tonight we got into an argument...
it escalated because I have feelings for someone else who is not him.
so many times I wished I could reciprocate his feelings because it would make my life sooo much easier... But I don't. I'm so scared that karma is going to come get at me for how I've hurt him...
tonight we decided to have a bare all. So I bore all and let him know the things I'd hidden from him, so I wouldn't hurt him.
ultimately I not only hurt him but infuriated him... I have no idea what will happen next but I wish him the best. I also hope that I will find someone else later in life that feels that way for me again... Plz karma I'm sooo sorry.
sometimes I wish my mind and heart would agree then my life would be much easier. Also I hope that hurting him, 3 hours of crying and all is worth it...