...and the shadows fall behind you

I can never find beauty in demise

But oh what a pleasant surprise

A glorious creation

Greeting me with salutations

I watch you wave hello

Similar to a mellow bellow

And I know that’s an oxymoron

Without you things would be quite boron

You blossom into this world at a timely manner

Spreading gracefully like a banner

A rainbow of colors so splendid

You leave leprechauns offended

Because your sight is priceless

Even Egyptian gold can`t top this

Enough to make others stop in their place

As they see God`s gospel is written in your face

Wishing they can understand

How you paint an art so grand

Spitting your poetry without motion

And still provoking such emotion

Can`t wait to see the sunrise

as opposed to watching it die

please

promise me this gets easier...
please.

new mantra

“if you care about what other people think, you will always be their prisoner”

—	James Frey  so eff it! do you and prosper ;]

my lyfe currently

up jamming “must be nice”

con mi boo ;] 

“Must be nice

Having someone you can come home to from a long day of work

Must be nice

Having someone you don’t have to show they know exactly where it hurts

Must be nice

Having someone who trusts you despite what they’ve heard

Someone as mighty as a lion but still as gentle as a bluebird

Must be nice

Having someone you don’t have to tell you don’t want to be alone”

#throwup

This has been a weekend of throwup purging 

cleaned out my closet

found random clothes

shopped for the little sister

even Alfred shedded his shell(scales?)

then my body decides to purge

being sick sucks but I guess my body wanted in on the purging fun too.

Trying to figure out how I got sick

I haven`t had an appetite

Eaten mostly fruits for the last few days

Maybe this is a good thing

Hope to be in shape for some running later.

SPEAK NO EVIL

 Watch what you say. Forget the saying "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me." That statement is false. Words have unlimited power. People who fight get it over with but words can stick with you for life. Eliminate words like "I can't" and "impossible" out of your vocabulary. Using phrases like those will stop you from searching for solutions to your problems. Instead, replace those feelings of doubt with questions such as "how can I" and "what do I need to do to make this possible".
Pay someone a sincere compliment at least once a day, chances are your compliment will make their day a bit brighter, and they will pass that sunshine along to others. 

devotion.

Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people,

but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the Lord.
  — Leviticus 19:18

Hanging on to bitterness and keeping alive grudges is consuming
work. It leaves little energy for blessing others, praising God, or
enjoying life. The only way to get over a bitter heart toward
others is to actively love and serve them in ways that bless their
lives. If we can’t do this because it’s hard to feel like it is the
right thing to do, we do it because we know God and want to please
him!

My prayer

Dear Father of light, love and mercy, please remove from my heart any
cynicism or delight in seeing others around me fall. Instead, help
me to be a rescuer rather than a neglector. I want your grace to be
seen in my friendships and in all that I do. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.

to my luck jason

to my lucky jason

You are the shopping cart in my night sky

got me feeling like I`m on a sugar induced high

sweeter than strawberries with splenda

splendidly blended

something like my addiction to Arizona but amended

if I am sourpatch kids, first sour then i`m sweet

well baby you must be my snickers satisfying my every need

my lucky Jason strum your strings thirteen times

and open your heart and mind enough to receive my rhymes

marching to two different drums like a complicated melody

that even the most beautiful songstress cannot sing on key

piecing together like thousand piece puzzles

slowsly but surely fitting together, nuzzle

if only my dreams were premonitions

no premature decisions just pure intuition

—bullet.tongue

white flag.

i surrender to avoid negativity

i was never a barbie girl

--bullet.tongue

my smileyface for the day

God created men first, because you always make a rough draft before a masterpiece!

commonsense w/ a side of family

i should`ve been here...

shoutout to whoever got to see some of my fave men 

:(

-bullet.tongue

synapses

was listening to joy and pain in the car w/ madre.
reminded me of american gangster
(ask no questions)
Do you think frank lucas could`ve done all that without the government noticing?
I don`t... maybe government support....

sounds like

--bullet.tongue

no pink bunnies

my charger is broke.
my phone my die.
i`m thinking of letting it
one of those days.

-bullet.tongue

quote of the day

"We always long for the forbidden things, and desire what is denied us." -Francois Rabelais
-bullet.tongue

Do more than exist – live, Do more than touch – feel, Do more than look – observe, Do more than read – absorb, Do more than hear – listen, Do more than listen – understand

i need a job.
life is sad.

too bad love won`t pay the bills.


-bullet.tongue

anyone wanna buy me a camera???

"they say that nobodies perfect but you look perfected, i really love to be the one you took a step with, so trust me when I tell you it’d be worth the effort"

"you and these damn goats"

i`m compiling a list of reoccurring things/people in my life...


i have a thing for goats.
not the real ones
capricorns
and i pray i don`t get anymore myotonic ones.
i have a thing for culture
meaning different races/nationalities
nigerians
asians
caribbeans
greeks
biracials
&& my southern gentlemen of course
we are our own culture




i think that`s it for now.. that i can think of. 

He said...

 "yea. i`m not completely oblivious. i1m just very conscious of what i can commit and what a woman of ur caliber deserves. like to keep the friends i have"


my heart just smiled. 
i have some of the greatest ppl in my life. 


<3 

deepest fear

I`ve asked people what their deepest fear is. I have 2


* not knowing and achieving my purpose in this world
* not tapping into at least 75% of my potential


I have been happier than ever recently but have felt stagnant and it`s taking a mental toll on me.


But today Ms. @mariep719 sent me a few quotes.






[3:46:38 PM] @mariep719: "That’s why nothing matters more than
knowing God’s purpose for your life, and
nothing can compensate for not knowing it—
not success, wealth, fame, or pleasure. Without
a purpose, life is motion without meaning,
activity without direction, and events without
reason. Without a purpose, life is trivial, petty,
and pointless."




[3:47:15 PM] @mariep719: A young man in his twenties wrote, “I feel
like a failure because I’m struggling to become
something, and I don’t even know what it is.
All I know how to do is to get by. Someday, if
I discover my purpose, I’ll feel I’m beginning
to live.”




[3:48:31 PM] moi: omgeeee
 thats how i feel. remember my issue w/ stagnation even though i`m happier than i`ve been in a while


[3:48:40 PM] @mariep719: exactly why i showed u that quote




^^ this is why she is my accountability partner.
she has a beautiful soul. i hope that you all can find an honest, real, loving, beautiful, and intelligent friend like i`ve found in my ebonyfreebird ;] check out her blog!




la pace, l`amore, la felicidad

purple heartache...lose weight

I just learned that in the past poisonous foods were purple...

purple is a appetite suppressant

so paint your kitchens purple

my whole house will be purple

in true Prince fashion ;]

i will blame all of my size on purple.

Thanks @mariep719 and Tyra Banks

i`m loving my life right now
(not like i was suicidal or anything)
I had a great and productive day today ;]
i`m happier than i have been in a while


Thanks to all my contributers ;] 

random thought

who the flocka is pete?

why is everything in his sake? 

anyone have an answer?

 Baby you the realest, I swear to God ;; the way you Keep A Smile on ya Face when times soo Hardd

sometimes i feel like i`m drowning in the seas of no one cares...

i want to paint pictures with my words...

i`ll always love music
that may be the only thing i love
outside of family and God
of course


thks for the reminder AD

codeine i need you

got reminded today that i am a beautiful woman...
thx for the timing mother nature.
smh.


i need to find these meds.
immmejiateeelly...
tylenol 3.
please reveal yourself to me!

it`s 2 days til my 2 month anniversary of my current hair-affair ;]

who wishes they invested in good googlieee mooglie? moi!

Google TV Combines TV, Android and All of the Internet

Google is launching something called Google TV. It brings regular TV and web video to your TV. Plus, Android apps. Apps! Live Updating

Google says there are two worlds now, the web, which lives on your laptop and your phone, and the TV world, which lives on your TV. 

But why aren't the solutions today making traction? Here are 3 reasons, according to Google.

1. They dumb down the web for TV. You're re-creating the web. "It's WAP all over again." "We need to find a way to bring the entire web to the television."

2. "They're all closed." Once you can go anywhere on the web, you don't want to go back.

3. The solutions today make you choose between web or TV. If you have to switch between the two, it's over. You've lost users.

Google wants to incorporate both into "a single seamless experience."

And here's a demo explaining HOW this stuff all works.

"Google TV starts with TV." This is your TV. "You only can add and enhance it."

phone notes. smileyface

 after having a healing conversation con mi madre. 
i called him.
found random notes on my phone
oh the beauty of my random thoughts.




"time doesn`t heal wounds the mind just covers them with scar tissue" 
--oh the reality in this statement is so amazing. i may come back to that for a post later

Poem 1: luckycharms?
you are my rainbow
you were orange when your fire lit my desire
you were blue when i saw you clear as day
you were purple at the times when we were together and i felt your royalty
you were green not like envy because that`s not your style but on days when trying to understand you made me sick
you were red when passion was embarked on your mind and body
you were yellow like caution warning signs that say "I follow my own rules"
you were beautiful as my rainbow
but my pot of gold has run out
you were a magnificent sight to see for that brief time
don`t be afraid to poke your head out again
I may need to see you when it rains.
I know that you were only temporarily mine because I felt that you belonged to someone else.


Poem 2: untitled
while you curve and crawl to find my nooks that keep me hooked
we fight in the most beautiful way
you push, i push back, sometimes pull
moving to a rhythm we both can attune to
symphonic sounds of pleasure and joy occasionally pain
but the good kind you don`t mind feeling the next day.
i laugh, you laugh, we laugh
i force my eyes closed believing in the saying that the best things in life are unseen.
this must be it because if there is anything better I don`t know if I can handle it.
You`re a drug that I don`t mind overdosing on
my promethazine lips that continue to sip
your codeine  
as you pour in that purple stuff that gives me a drag, a lag, the itis.
Once we sleep i watch you find peace
the beauty of your bone structure puts the Greeks to shame
i`m thinking maybe they modeled Adonis after you...

(that`s all i had on that one. maybe i`ll go back and finish it)

nihongo

jammin` The Time station on Pandora wishin` that Juneteenth would hurry up and get here. 
I`ve spent a good day w/ my twin looking at her beautiful new kitchen lol. Then went to go see mike: always a pick me up. smileyface. i went to the library. got 2 LSAT books. ichi nihongo hon.
my current readings are about as random as my brain. that`s saying alot.  


la pace. l`amore. la felicidad

make love not war.

i hear a fly by my window. but i don`t want to kill it

family

i will be working on a new piece prob.
sometime soon

i spent the whole day w/ my family.
i love them
they are beautiful in so many ways
we are truth.
we are love.

i learned family history.
like 1860 census kind of history
and yes i`m straight slave.
or so it seems from now
wonder who sold us?
which country i mean.


ended my night w/ crab legs
sweet corn
shrimp
chicken
all on the grill
w/ some cole slaw.

la pace, l`amore, la felicidad

abstaining...

So it all started 2 nights ago with a tweet from @TonyGaskins via @mariep719

"sis, keep your legs closed b4 marriage forces a man to stepup in your life or stepout of your life"

@mariep719 asked me what I thought about this. I told her I kind of agree. Truthfully I didn`t wait and had no qualms about not waiting. But one of my most notable sayings is "sex is like Pringles, once you pop the fun don`t stop" But after a period of time the fun may stop. it becomes just an action or what's next to do in a relationship. You don`t want to be reduced to what's next. This isn`t right it`s not how it`s suppose to be. 

"what you want might make you cry, what you need might pass you by."

xx Lauryn Hill

Not many people can remove their emotions from sex, especially the emotional creatures also known as females. For this reason I agree with Tony Gaskins tweet. Don`t seek for a relationship in sex unless that`s the only point of the relationship. and if that`s all it is it probably won`t last long.

Don`t ever confuse

when he`s into you

and when he enters you

what makes sense to you

and what your senses do

when he bends the truth

and when he`s bending you...

xx Bradley via http://tonnybonandtreats.blogspot.com/ << check her out!

Odd that I ran across this when recently my mind state has had me leaning away from sex. I have decided that I will abstain now to indulge later. i want to feel special and stop giving a piece of myself everytime my 'needs' come knocking. Biblically speaking sex=marriage union.. How many people are you married to? Can you keep up with those marriages? Do you want to? 

My advice just be catuious and do what`s best for you. 

Use your brain. guard your heart. find peace

la pace, l`amore, la felicidad

the late night photgraphs

So I ran across some pictures

It`s amazing what a picture can do

They`re definitely worth a thousand words

A thousand smiles

A thousand tears

We were happy

We were flirtatious

We were a monument

We were paparazzi perfect

We were beautiful

We were unpredictable

There were days when I missed that

Took months to get over you

Wishing you would want me the way

I wanted you

The way I needed you

You just had to be friends with my friends

You had to be likable

You had to be charismatic

You had to be

You had to be unforgettable

There were days I couldn`t get you out my sheets

Your scent lingered

Your touch lingered

Your voice lingered

Your taste lingered

Damn that John Legend song

How could you ruin my favorite song?

You were my anti-drug

I was addicted to you

I`ve been sitting here surrounded by blunt leaves

Trying to kill the brain cells of all the memories of you and me

No matter how “high” I could get

John Legend couldn`t erase your memory

Unfortunately he brought it back

Hit me like an 18 wheeler every time I heard the melody

Instead of beautiful sounds

I heard car wrecks and chainsaws

Broken hearts couldn`t be mended

Even if I knew a welder

Cause unfortunately this wasn`t a clean rip

Possibly something a surgeon could handle

I used to smile at the sound of your name

Then I got tired of it so I rearranged it

Now it doesn`t sound so much like mine

But it`s cool now

Nothing`s the same now

And if you were standing right in front of me

I still wouldn`t know who you are.

All of this came to me from a picture

I tried to make it worth a thousand words

But you`re not worth that many to me anymore

i just put in my retainer...
my lil brother ran away ;] 

i think he still loves me...

disney..ooh lala

what you want might make you cry...
what you need might pass you by. 
xx Lauryn Hill

today i`m having a random day... a very random day. 
the kind that needs documentation lol.
wheres my trio when i need them 

my thoughts on Alicia`s Unthinkable video

Okay... maybe it`s just me but I could have sworn Unthinkable was about something completely different. so what`s with the video. The song is not about interracial dating!!! Alicia herself is not fully African-American. which throws the whole video out of context. Don`t get me wrong i definitely like the video concept and even how they showed the changes in eras. Very talented cinematography whoever the director/producer was. But Alicia really?!?! We`re all big kids here we know what the song is about. I was really looking forward to a video that depicted the song. guess not. Did she give a reason for the video? If anyone knows of it let me know I`m very curious.

we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character; and character, hope.

partial journal entry.

a wind current flowed through my veins but luckily the oxygen bubble didn`t pop. it found its way out in the form of a yawn and as my mouth stretched the current exited and my mind stretched taking in all the glories mother nature has to offer. she is definitely the most beautiful and powerful women in the world, maybe she`s a black woman...

talking to a friend.
poem coming soon.
hopefully.

la pace, l`amore, le felicidad

The mating call means It's time for summer... Ohhh the signs of mother nature you have taught me alot.

&& this is who i do it for

heaviest burden.
biggest motivation.
true love at its finest.

morning.thoughts

i`m not the girl you find in a video.
nor am i trying to be.
i`m actually pretty weird
pretty different
pretty special
pretty loving
pretty real
pretty pessimistic
pretty ambitious
all that being said
i`m pretty.
;]


off to the gym

xx,

Bridge.

la pace, l`amore, la felicidad

fragment of a skype convo.

[4/30/2010 10:51:29 PM] Bridget Thrash: hehe ohhhh the joy of people who need to realize 1. their no longer in kansas 2. high school is officially over! 3. messy kids grow up to be messy unhappy normally lonely adults 4. trivial things are exactly that trivial and in a few years won't matter when you realize you wasted a lot of energy that has become negative and is now consuming your soul

kuz if u do imma need ur half of da rent $

bahahhaa i pay no rent! where's my moneyyyy!?!

Ask me anything

thoughts of the day.

"I was angry with you until it occurred to me that you might die."

William Ball

Personal story:

my brother is now incarcerated. it had been a while since i spoke with him and these recent weeks. i have had family members pass away and my anger towards my brother is minimal in the grand scheme of things. i think its weird how it takes something tragic to get some people to hit realization. i will admit that i have been one of those people before. 

when my brother called me i didn't answer thinking why did it take you so long to check up on your friggin` little sister. then a week later i receive a text message disclosing that he may potentially be going to jail. :( talk about debby downer. i was nobody's friend for a while. enjoying my own little bubble and now i wish i could have just answered the phone that day. not like it would have made that big of a deal. 

i`m less than a month from returning HOME and he won`t be there for me to say. distraught can`t even describe how i feel. but it has motivated me in multiple ways. 

1. the Justice system is flawed. but i love it. I am now more motivated to get to my goal of law school then I have been since I first made the decision of becoming a supreme court justice years ago. 

2.  life is not promised. so carpe diem! but don`t be stupid about it. tell those you love that they are appreciated before the opportunity to do so is taken away.  

3. freedom is not free. 

i have some of the best people in my life. they continue to bless me everyday and I can do nothing but thank God for them. when the little or big things get me down i know i have a wall stronger than China's behind me. I pray for them that God can continue to strengthen them. for w/o him and them much wouldn`t be possible for me. Through all of this work, trials and tribulations, joys and pains I have you. 

Thanks dears ;]

la pace, l`amore, la felicidad

what turns you on both physically and mentally

this is a long list but i'll give one for each: physically- a beautiful smile, mentally- ambition

Ask me anything

when can a nigga hit???

sorry i don`t condone domestic violence. try someone else.

Ask me anything

Whats up with u and Nicksmoove?

bahahhaaha. really? this just made my day.

Ask me anything

Will you marry me?

i don`t talk to strangers sorry. mommy's rules

Ask me anything

where do u see urself 5 yrs frm now?

five years from now.. hmmm. i`ve life can throw some things at you, so i don`t have anything set in stone. but i hope to either be finishing law school or hard at work with whatever profession i choose.

Ask me anything

Bestie I will forever love u lol....the end

same to you dear ;]

Ask me anything

How big them knockers?

let's see if you're my fb friend and you're smart enough you can figure it out. if not then its really none of your concern.

Ask me anything

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what made you cut your hair and all?

multiple reasons: i haven`t known the real texture of my hair. felt like i was missing a true essence of bridget. also, relaxers aren`t healthy for hair so i want to treat myself and my hair well.

Ask me anything

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No I didn`t cut my hair to feel liberated!

I do not believe that the "creamy crack" is a symbol of the white man holding me down and telling me what beauty is. i disagree. I am old enough to make my own decisions and last night I made the decision to chop it all off. I have nothing against the women that feel that relaxers oppress them, that is your choice. I personally made the decision to do not only what is best for my hair but also what is best for me. You see I want to know the natural me, the real me and I haven`t even known my real texture in a long time due to relaxers. Now is the time for my next affair and I plan on this being a long lasting prosperous one. So for those who have asked how long this is going to last, don`t hold your breath.

But this was not a spur of the moment chop. I transitioned by having the mohawk first I knew that I was on the way to au naturale. Last night I chopped the rest off. I will put up pics later.

Funny thing is I am not my hair just came on Pandora... ;]

la pace, l'amore, la felicdad
<3 BRiDGE.